if only !!

if only to avoid the half happiness
that takes me away from you

if only to crush the half mind
to stop believing what i had been into

if only to sense the blurred half sight
to see the soul’s flight

if only to utter the mumbled half words
to know if you could still understand me

if only to take the half breath
to feel if am still alive

if only i could pull the magic out of you
to know if your charms still work

if only i could be half dead
to sense the half pain
to bring me closer to youu!!

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and for ‘some’ people who took it otherwise hahaha i need to explain ou the context
1st Stanza: in regard of relation to Allah Talah, to avoid the pleasure that takes me away from him.
2nd Stanza: to forget any bad things that happened in the past.
3rd Stanza: to experience death.
4th Stanza: for people who are around a person, who is on his/her death bed.
5th Stanza: to feel life.
6th Stanza: as how people take advantage of others by their charming personalities.
7th Stanza: for Allah Talah, cos we only remember him while we are in pain and if that is so then pain should be a constant form of our live’s.